Thursday, July 29, 2010
As of July 15th, I have made a pretty big commitment. I decided that I would go through the bible in one month. One of my really dear friends put out a challenge, and I thought I just might take it up.
Why? Well here are my thoughts on the idea….
At first I wasn’t all that excited about the whole thing… I mean a part of me was saying “Yeah that would be great, I’ll learn so much, spend more time with God… it’ll be awesome!”. But the other part was saying “Umm… Really?… Spending 4-5 hours each day with God? Do I have the time?”. Obviously you can see my conscious speaking and what my flesh was telling me.
Just recently I found out some news that really rattled my boat and definitely was one of the reasons I took up the challenge. It’s about my Grandparents. Right now they are in a really tough situation, going through circumstances, that a year ago, I never imagined would have happened. However, their reaction to it has made me really look at my own life and how I am living for God. Through these trials they have been so strong and have constantly been praising the Lord, reading His word, and making Him their everything. I can’t really go into details about their circumstances, but to see this reaction has really made me think.
In my Grandma’s letters to us she has told us how she realizes now, in the situation that she is in, that before in her everyday life she wasn’t really putting God first in her life. She tells of how she had idols that she didn’t even realize were idols. They might not have been “bad”, in fact they are some of the greatest blessings God has given her, but it became more important than the most important thing. She urged us all to examine our own life and see if we have idols… things we put before God and our relationship with Him.
Am I doing everything I can, in every situation of my life, to bring glory to God? Am I making HIM my very top priory? Do I spend as much time with Him as I do with my friends? My family?
To be truthful, I can’t say I do/have. Does this make me sad? Yes. I WANT Jesus to be my everything…. But why, why is it so hard? Why do I let my flesh rule and constantly put other things in my life above God?
I am a sinner. I’m not perfect. Sometimes I really really wish I was. But from my very first breath here on earth, I entered into this world with fleshly desires… I’m a sinner.
However, God saved me through grace and has sanctified me and is continuing to. He is showing me things in my life that I can change, need to change and must change. This doesn’t mean though that it won’t be hard, and I’ll just be able to change “just like that”!
Sure, it’s sometimes not that smooth of a ride, things can get bumpy and sometimes it even feels like I’m gonna crash… but through it God is working in me. And that is what I want. I’m glad He is showing me these things in my life that aren’t right.
Lord, I want You to be my top priority in life!
Reading through the bible has been really good. I spend so much more time with God then I have in the past few months. And I have been learning things! More posts to come. =)
Psalm 19:14- "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer."
To God be the glory forever and ever!